It had been six months since the moved and Jennifer loved it. Soaking up the sun she smiled thinking about how much her life had changed. She was happy for once. She never thought she’d say that not since she lost her dad. In her single-minded obsession she lost her step-mom basically the only mother she knew. Wiping a tear away she had caused so much harm she would never be able to look back on her life without regret or guilt.
She had felt impelled to seek out her siblings to apologize but for the most part the only ones who really understood what she was telling them was Amanda and Robbie. Amanda had cried and all she could do was hold her as she blubbered on about how ghosts had stopped seeking her out and that was somehow related to Jennifer stopping her time travels. It didn’t make much sense to her but she was glad that it seamed to comfort Amanda in some small way.
Robbie had been another story altogether. She had gone to see him but he had refused to see her. Chase went to see him alone. She had no idea what Chase had told him but whatever it was Rob agreed to see her. She walked into his small house in Riverview where he stood with an arm protectively around his pregnant girlfriend. Jennifer vividly remembered the conversation that followed.
“Robbie I’m…I’m so sorry,” she stammered on the verge of tears.
“You should be,” he said anger deepening his voice. Miranda put a hand on his arm leaning into him.
Hanging her head Jennifer knew Rob hated her. There was no doubt in her mind. “I should have quit when you asked me to. I should have let you quit when you wanted to. I’m sorry. I know you can’t forgive me for what I’ve done but I am sorry.”
Patting Miranda’s hand Robbie sighed “Jen I’m glad you recognize that you’ve done terrible things but I…I can’t look at you and not see the person who deliberately set out to destroy my life. I’m sorry,” shaking his head “maybe in time but not right now.”
“I understand,” she nodded tears streaming done her cheeks as she enormity of what she had done weighed heavily on her shoulders. Turning she murmured “I’m sorry,” one last time before leaving.
Standing on Rob’s small porch she felt Chase put his arms around her “it’ll be ok. Give him time.”
Sobbing into his shoulder “he hates me. Just like I knew he would. I’m a terrible person.” Sniffing she looked up into Chase’s blue eyes “why do you stay by my side? You should go before I hurt you too.”
Bringing his lips down to hers he said “that will never happen. I know who you are. I know what you can do and I know what you won’t do.”
The memory brought a smile to her lips as she remembered. Putting a hand on her stomach she also knew the fear that Robbie must have felt knowing how callously she had wiped his child from existence. She’d hate anyone who did that to her. Absently rubbing her stomach. She couldn’t wait for Chase to come home. She couldn’t wait to tell him the news.
Walking into the still silent house Chase called out “honey I’m home.” He smiled to himself he liked coming home to someone. Having someone smile up at him glad to see him after a long day of work. The silence that greeted him had him creasing his forehead in worry. Where was she? She’s always home when he got home. Walking outside he saw her sitting under the umbrella. “Jennifer are you alright?” he asked approaching her.
“Opening her eyes she smiled up at him “I must have fallen asleep.” She sat up stretching and yawning “I’m sorry I meant to have supper waiting for you when you got home.”
“It’s alright,” he said sitting beside her “we’ll go out to eat, how does that sound?”
“Like a date?” she asked excitement lighting up her eyes.
“Yeah like a date,” he smiled squeezing her tight “Come on let’s get dressed. I’m taking you to the best restaurant in town.”
Mouth dropping open “we can’t afford that,” she protested.
“Sure we can” his smile grew “I got a promotion today.”
Flying into his arms Jennifer squealed in delight “congratulations” she cried kissing him “you worked hard enough for it.”
“I did, didn’t I,” he smiled down at her “come on I’m starving.” He led her into the house.
Walking into the restaurant Jennifer felt a flutter in her stomach. Tonight was going to be memorable. Looking up at Chase she noticed he changed his hair style “you look really nice tonight.” Reaching up she ran her fingers through his blue hair “yes very nice.”
“Thank you,” he smiled down at her “you look beautiful as usual.” Following the maitre d they sat down half listening to the recited wine list.
As the waiter was pouring the wine Jennifer put her had over her glass “no thank you.”
Putting the bottle down the waiter went away for their order. She looked up into the questioning eyes of her partner. “I um can’t drink alcohol. At least not for a while.” She suddenly felt very self-conscious “I have a surprise for you.”
Taking a sip of his wine “it better be good if your passing up on this wine. It’s very god. Are you sure you don’t want to try some?”
Nodding her head she took a deep breath. She wasn’t sure how he was going to respond but she had to tell him “I um I’m pregnant,” she stammered looking towards Chase’s stunned face.
Closing his mouth he stared at her. Her words echoing through his mind “I’m sorry what?” he shook his head as if he was trying to shake water from his ears.
“I’m going to have a baby,” she repeated. His stunned silence hung heavy in the air between. Tears forming behind her eyes to turned to leave the table when he reached out to stop her.
“We’re having a baby,” he repeated gripping her arm tightly.
Nodding she lowered her eyes “I know we haven’t discussed kids or anything for that matter. It’s not the right time and you probably don’t want to have kids at least not with me….I’m sorry.”
“Aw honey it’s not that….whatever gave you that idea?” Chase got up and knelt in front of her. He could sense the restaurant patrons watching them but now that he was down here he had to go through with it. “Jennifer I was going to wait until we were walking along the beach under the stars but” taking a box out of his pocket he fumbled as his hands shook “will you marry me?”
Staring at him then at the ring her heart beating wildly in her chest. It felt surreal. Her whole life was leading up to this moment. She didn’t feel good enough for this man or this child. One thing she knew was she would spend the rest of her life trying to deserve them. She looked into his hopeful eyes and nodded “yes,” she said her voice barely above an inaudible whisper.
He slipped the ring on her finger “Jennifer Bennett you are the most enchanting woman I know. I’m glad I had the opportunity to meet you even though I had to work extra hard to break through your stubborn exterior. I love you.”
“I love you too,” she sniffed wiping at her eyes “you make me happier then I ever thought I could be or deserve to be.” They stood there motionless unheeding of the stares of the people around them. She wrapped her arms around him “thank you for not giving up on me.”